Monday, November 29, 2010

CD13 of C4

My DH leaves on Friday. I am so hoping that we had a chance this cycle. It would be the best Christmas/Birthday present ever.

I have been taking OPK to see if I can get a positive on them. I'm doing this more as a reassurance to myself that I am indeed ovulating. Today I got an extremely faint line. I'm hoping that faint line turns into a positive before Friday. With OPKs your test line has to be as dark or darker than the control line to be actually positive. Unlike with HPT, where any line in the test area means a positive test.

We may have a chance this cycle after all. It would be so amazing if we caught the egg this cycle. Everyone please pray and keep your fingers crossed for us.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

CD9 of C4

Nothing really to report. I've had extremely bad cramps and heavy flow this cycle. It's come to a stop now except for the occassional nasty cramp. These cramps were so bad I think I would have rather gone through labor. But, I think it's all stopping now.

My DH is leaving in about 8 days. I really don't think we have a high chance of making a baby in that time. I think I am going to get some dollar store ovulation tests to take just to see if I can get a positive OPK. That would give me some piece of mind. Honestly we BD enough that as long as I'm ovulating there shouldn't even be a chance of that little eggy getting missed. But, I think seeing a nice dark line on an OPK will make me feel better.

Once I get the benefits squared away I will go in to the OB/GYN and make sure I won't need some help with ovulation. I'm sure everything's fine. My body is just working extra hard on making another extra special egg (like the one that Joseph developed from).

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

CD1 of C4

The third cycle has come to an unsuccessful end. I will continue to blog throughout this last cycle on the off chance that we are able to conceive. My husband will be leaving in about two weeks and then will be home mid December. So, I guess depending on when I ovulate there may be a slim chance. I'm doubtful, but maybe it'll happen.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

CD33 of C3

I am so sad and disappointed right now. AF isn't here yet, but after my post yesterday I spent the rest of the day and night having strong AF like cramps. I cried buckets before going to bed.

This was our last chance until April, and I really wanted it to happen. So, I guess we'll be starting at square one come April. This is just so frustrating. I'll try to continue to post periodically on here, and will of course let you all know when the ttc has again restarted. T minus 5 months and counting.

Monday, November 15, 2010

CD32 of C3

So, I'm still sticking with the "No news, is good news" adage. I don't feel like I'm pregnant, but I also don't feel like I'm going to start AF. I wish, pray, and hope with all my heart that we were able to make a baby this month.

I should know sometime over the next 5-6 days if we were successful or not. I hate the waiting part. I hate not knowing. All I keep thinking of is the fact that if we weren't successful this month we won't be able to try again for over 5 months. That thought makes me extremely sad. :(

Thursday, November 11, 2010

CD28 of C3

I don't really have anything to report. I don't have cramps. I don't feel pregnant, and I don't feel like AF will be here soon. So, I guess at this point no news is good news.

AF should be here sometime over the next 8-10 days. I really, really hope we caught that little eggy. I'm trying to remain hopeful. If not, you probably won't hear much from me until after DH's return (he is in the military and will be gone until mid April for training).

I want this to have been the month. There are few things I've ever wanted more. I know it'll happen soon even if it's not right now. I just want it to be now.

Monday, November 8, 2010

CD25 of C3

Well, I'm having major ovulation/cyst cramps today. Sometimes when the cyst pain is really bad I feel nauseous. I woke up feeling nauseous on top of crampy today, so either I ovulated recently and/or I am working on one or more major cysts. I'm hopeful that I was able to produce a healthy, viable egg before my body started working on a cyst. I guess time will tell. If AF is as long as last cycle it should be here in 12-13 days.

I hate this part of it. This is a waiting game. I'm sure at this point we've done all we can do and we just have to be patient. This will be our last real shot at another baby for awhile so I'm praying really hard that this cycle is it.

I just wish this process was more certain and guaranteed. I hate this uncertainty. I know we'll get there even if it's not this cycle, but I really want it to be this cycle.

Friday, November 5, 2010

CD22 of C3

I'm still not really noticing completely obvious signs of ovulation. Had an increase in CM over the past few days, but I don't think cycle. That would just about break my heart.

My DH leaves tonight and won't be back until Sunday. I'm hoping that ovulation already happened or won't happen until Sunday.

But, that's about it. I know nothing really new to report. I'm sure I'll have more updates as this cycle comes to an end.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

CD20 of C3

I'm so weepy right now. I just want to be pregnant. I am so ready to add to our family. It just frustrates me that people who can't afford, or don't want children can get pregnant so easily. Here we are trying so hard, and it's not happening. I just hate this part. I'm ready, I want this, come on already.

That being said I've noticed an increase in CM yesterday and today. Perhaps impending ovulation? I've had some low pelvic cramps. It doesn't feel like ovary pain it feels more like AF type cramps. So, we'll just have to wait and see I guess. I have a feeling ovulation will take place this weekend when DH is gone.

I'm doing my best to not think about this. I am spending my nights before bed unwinding with my Sims game. Hopefully less stressing about this will help the entire situation.

Monday, November 1, 2010

CD18 of C3

I'm a little frustrated at my lack of ovulation symptoms. Had quite a bit of CM yesterday, but none today. I haven't been crampy or really feeling like ovulation is getting ready to happen at all.

This is our last real chance before DH leaves, and I really hope my body doesn't choose this month not to ovulate at all. That would really suck!

So far this cycle I've found out about 3 more people who are expecting. I'm really happy for these women, but I'm also a little sad. I went through this a lot while ttc our first. I'm ready to be pregnant, and I'm ready to add to our family. Honestly at this point if I were to write down everyone who is expecting I think I would have close to 20-30 names. I know we're only on C3 but I want it to be our turn!

DH leaves on Friday for military drill. He'll be back on Sunday. Hoping ovulation doesn't hold off to the weekend and then we miss the little eggy again.