Tuesday, May 31, 2011

CD29 of C5

I keep having dreams that I am pregnant or that I get a BFP on a HPT. They are great dreams, but I wake up kind of sad, because I don't know when that will happen for us.

I'm beginning to have real AF cramps. I've tried to brush off some of my other cramps as a little bit different than AF but these are definitely AF cramps. This makes me sad.

BBs are a little puffy and I'm still hyper sensitive (I cried last night holding our DS). These are all PMS for me so I'm pretty sure I'm out. Only time will tell I guess.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

CD27 of C5

After a couple days of really severe cramping it has pretty much subsided. I'm having a little bit of the normal cramps I seem to get around the time of AF (before bleeding actually begins).

I've been hyper-emotional the last few days. I actually cried when my freshly washed bathroom floor (the floor I had just scrubbed on my hands and knees) was dirtied within 5 minutes of finishing it. There's been a couple other emotional outbursts. I'm sure it's just normal PMS stuff though.

I'm so ready and so excited to get pregnant. I just wish it could happen on my time.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

CD23 of C5

I have been having AF like cramps for a day or two now. They are so bad today I actually had to take some tylenol and I've spent the last few hours with my heating pad. So much for saying that I haven't had really terrible cramps the last couple of cycles. I honestly cannot believe I am not having AF right now with cramps this bad. There's been a couple of times I felt a little wetness and ran to the bathroom expecting to see a mess and there's nothing but CM.

I was feeling really optimistic about this cycle, but I am not really feeling that anymore. I think AF is on its way and by the way I'm feeling it will be here anytime. :(

Monday, May 23, 2011

CD21 of C5

I keep getting my hopes way up about this month. I'm afraid I'm in for a sad day in another week or two when AF arrives.

This will be the first full month we've been able to TTC since November. I weigh about 30ish pounds less than I did in November. I'm wondering, hoping and praying that the weight loss will speed up conception. I currently weigh 22 pounds less than when I conceived our little boy. So it's because of those 2 factors that something in my head is telling me it'll be easier to conceive. I'm either going to be highly disappointed or highly ecstatic in just a couple weeks. I really hope it's the latter.

Still having TONS and TONS of CM. I've been having a few pinches and twinges lower in my abdomen. Hopefully these are good signs!

If I haven't gotten AF by Father's Day (which I'm pretty sure is June 8th) I will test. That will put me right around the 36th cycle day (if I'm doing my math correctly), that's longer than my last few cycles. Also, I think it would be a great surprise and gift for my husband.

Friday, May 20, 2011

CD18 of C5

Blah! I feel so worn out. It could be because my son hasn't slept well the last couple of nights. I feel like the undead. I'm just kind of stumbling through each of my tasks today and hoping that the more I do the more awake I'll feel. It's not working and I'm at the point where I actually feel so groggy and kind of dizzy that it feels as though I've taken some cold medicine - which I haven't.

If I've not already ovulated I know I'm getting close. I'm feeling a bit hormonal and my CM is kicked up quite a bit. I really think losing weight has helped in this department. The last couple days it's been so heavy I have run to the bathroom thinking AF has started early. I never had this much CM before. Hopefully this is a good sign of things to come. The larger amount of CM and the longer it lasts really helps in conceiving. Sperm lives the longest in EWCM. The longer the sperm life the more likihood that they will be there to greet the egg when it is released.

Part of me really wants to use OPKs so I know for sure when I've o'ing. But I hate to take the fun out of the baby making process and I think that's what would happen. But anyway, my cycles have been running about 32-33ish days the last few cycles, so I would expect AF around June 5th or so. I hate to get my hopes up, but it would be a heck of a Father's Day gift.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

CD16 of C5

For those of you who are ttc or for those of you that took a while to conceive, did you ever feel that if there is nothing physically wrong with you that there is NO way you didn't make a baby this month? That's how I feel.

It's frustrating to hear stories about people who got pregnant "accidentally", do not want the kids they have or can have sex one time in their cycle (no where near ovulation) and get pregnant.

I definitely will say that since we both know what we're getting ourselves into, making a second baby is a lot more fun than the first. :)

That being said, I've been having a lot more EWCM. Today I also started having some more left sided ovary pain.

As I write this my almost 3 year old is finishing breakfast and telling me how he wants a baby brother and sister. It melts my heart. I cannot wait until we can give him one.

Monday, May 16, 2011

CD14 of C5

Not so much ovarian cramping going on now. Lots of EWCM though. It's a little frustrating because a lot of times when I have more EWCM my nose is extra mucusy (is that a word?) too. I think your body doesn't know which mucuses to increase so it just increases it everywhere. But I guess if I have to deal with a runny nose in order to get pregnant I can do that.

I had stopped visiting my ttc forum while my husband was gone. It just made me sad that we couldn't even ttc and I didn't want to see all sorts of posts from people who could still ttc. So, now that we are back to ttc, I'm back at my forum. It's really interesting to meet such totally different (yet the same) people. We aren't the only couple ttc and not succeeding at it accidentally as so many people claim to.

So anyhow, I'm breaking out really bad right now, and it's got to be the extra hormones kicking in. That coupled with the pains I had a few days ago and the EWCM makes me think an eggy is getting ready to be released. Keeping my fingers crossed for an extra awesome eggy this month.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

CD12 of C5

Holy ovarian cramps Batman! I can't believe the way my ovaries feel right now. It feels like they are gearing up for a battle. I spent most of the morning having right sided ovarian pains and now that has ceased and the left side is all geared up. Hopefully this means my body is working on a super special egg for this month.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

CD9 of C5

Nothing much to report. No current sign of ovulation. My husband will be away for military stuff this weekend. Murphy's law states I will ovulate then. I really hope I get my BFP before summer is over.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

CD5 of C5

AF is coming to an end. This cycle has been a bit different than my normal cycles. Normally I have killer cramps during my whole AF. I only had to take something for cramps once (so far). I wonder if this cycle is still a bit off because of what my body went through during March.

DS is really interested in becoming a big brother. He asks for a baby sister fairly often. But he has told me he is "okay" with having a baby brother too. I'm trying to prepare him for the time when a baby will be here. I know he will be a fantastic big brother.

I was watching a pregnant flash mob dancing (on you tube) last night. My husband saw what I was doing. He then told me, "Don't worry I'll get you pregnant soon." It lifted my spirits. I'm glad that he knows how I'm feeling and that he is looking forward to another pregnancy and addition.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

CD1 of C5

AF has arrived. I am terming this cycle as C5 since this will technically be the 5th cycle of us actively ttc. My DH has drill the 13th through the 15th of this month. And I'm sure it will be my luck that will be about the time I'm ovulating.

I'm trying to be patient. I know this will all happen when it's supposed to.

Monday, May 2, 2011

CD31 of NTNP1

I'm expecting AF anytime. I'm getting pretty crampy and crabby. That's about it.